Memories

All I have left 

Of the life I used to have

Is memories. 

Memories before the war

Of peace,

Love,

Happiness,

Serenity.

Memories during the war 

Of struggling

Crushed hope

Lost happiness

And Fading love.

And memories after the war

The most vivid,

The most painful.

Memories

Of lost memories,

Lost love

Lost happiness

Tears

Death

And self mutilation.

These memories

Are etched into my skin

A tattoo

That has gotten infected,

Leaving a rotten, open wound in its place. 

Those memories

Will stay forever

No matter how hard I try to scrub them away.

My skin may turn red

The blood may flow

But encased within all the blood

The memories will stay. 

I try to cover them up with better memories

Happier memories,

More cheerful memories,

But the depressing stain always creeps through.

Sometimes I think that it's gone

But it has just gone for now,

Slipped away underneath the covers. 

Someday I hope

That the scar will be gone forever,

Just another memory

That will be locked away forever.

But in the mean time, 

It will be hidden just beneath the skin,

Just waiting for the right moment,

Or the wrong moment, 

To break free.

Gone Forever, For The Better

I remember the times

We tried to make something

Out of completely nothing.

You told me to take your hand 

And believe

That you would guide me

Through all of life's perils.

Your hands

So warm and cozy

Tricked me.

You pushed me into water

Headfirst

Without even wondering if I could breathe.

You laughed as I drowned

Sputtering and coughing.

You didn't help me

As I screamed out your name.

You just left

And gave someone else

Your warm, cozy hand.

You needed another girl to push into the water

Because apparently,

You and me were through.

But then after you left

I realized the water was only a foot deep.

I stood up on my own

With no help at all.

Eventually

Someone came and helped me,

Comforted me through everything

I had been through.

Coaxed me to forget you

Forget your face,

Forget your smile,

Forget your laugh.

Now,

Because of him,

I no longer remember the memories of you and me.

The memories

Are just memories. 

No more.

I remember the day you left

The day I found life again

The day I was reborn.

Usually

It was that I couldn't go a day

Without thinking of you.

Now, 

You've been replaced.

That person

Who saved me when I needed it most

When I was abandoned 

By a person

Who said they would never leave me

Is always running through my head.

Now,

It's not your face

That runs through my mind.

It's his.

It's not your smile

That runs through my ming.

It's his.

And even though I still think of you sometimes

When I am all alone

I remember that you are gone forever

And just like that

I'm over you.

You thought that I would never get over you...

I did.